Why do I say sorry?

I constantly say sorry and I have no idea why. As a way to be more conscious of this habit, I wrote down every instance I said the word.

From this week of documentation, I started to wonder if it is bad to say sorry?

Why would it be bad to express your sympathy or remorse to others? Maybe it’s okay to say ‘sorry’ if you really do feel bad? But why do i feel guilty for arbitrary reasons, such as not being able to make a meeting or for accidentally bumping into someone? Am I always worried about saying or doing the right thing? Or is it just a habit conditioned by society and my upbringing?

Is sorry the right word for all these instances? Perhaps I can reframe my reactions as ‘excuse me’ or ‘thank you for doing that’?

On that note, please excuse the ramblings above. This reflection requires more thought and editing, but I’m just putting these questions out there as unapologetically as I can.